When I was 3 years old, my father brought me 4 wheels little bike. My bike was still new at that time, but my father unloaded 2 wheels on right and left side of the bike until it was only 2 wheels on front and back. Am I ready to use the bike at that time? No I am not. But I tried until I got used to it. In the end, I was still 3, and I could ride 2 wheels bicycle.
When I was 5 and a half, my mother registered me to elementary public school. No school accepted me because I was too young. But my mother forced one of the schools to gave me test. I got great result, as they accept me as student. Am I ready to be elementary student at that time? No I am not. Yes I was too young for public school. But I tried to prove it. In the end, I was still 5, and I was the youngest among classmates.
When I was 15, I admire a boy who I never talk to since the very first sight. I never show my feeling since I was a very shy girl and I have integrity towards some promises to my self. During 3 years admire from distance, he already changed his girlfriend for 3 times too. But, until farewell party, I still admire him just like the first time I met him. Am I ready to forget him at that time? No I am not. I still have feelings toward him even a few years from the last time I saw him on farewell. Da’wah through both virtual and real world, circle of mentoring, and good friends improve my knowledge about how to manage this kind of feeling. In the end, I’ve been moved on ^^
When I was 16, I was faced with 2 choices, IPA or IPS. I couldn’t understand physics at all and I do really have interest on social knowledge subjects. But my parents forced me to enter science class. In the same time, my sister announced that she was accepted as ITB student. Sisterhood rivalry do exist. Than I fulfill my parents will on science. 2 years later, it was announced that I was accepted in ITB. Am I ready to be science person at that time? No I am not. I still got big trouble with physics and every subjects related. But I tried. In the end, I finished my school on time without repetition on every subjects.
Last month, I was faced with the most crazy exam I’ve ever done in my life. One in thousands drugs was randomly selected as question of the 10 hours writing test. I only have 2 weeks to focus on study with many thick books I loaned. Am I ready to face the test at that time? NO I AM NOT AT ALL. But time goes on and examination must be carried on. In the end, I finished the test and passed.
Morale from my life =
If you ask my readiness of something, whenever and no matter how hard I tried, I will never be ready. I can’t defined readiness by how much things or knowledge or money or power I think I have. I am pretty sure there is A BIG INVISIBLE POWER making impossible to possible and this what makes me live.
It’s ALLAH will.
“Jika Allah menimpakan suatu kemudharatan kepadamu, maka tidak ada yang dapat menghilangkannya kecuali Dia. Dan jika Allah menghendaki kebaikan bagi kamu, maka tak ada yang dapat menolak karunia-Nya. Dia memberikan kebaikan itu kepada siapa yang dikehendaki-Nya di antara hamba-hamba-Nya dan Dia-lah yang Maha Pengampun lagi Maha Penyayang.” (QS. Yunus  : 107)
“Jika Allah menolong kamu, maka tidak ada yang dapat mengalahkan kamu, tetapi jika Allah membiarkan kamu (tidak memberi pertolongan), maka siapa yang dapat menolongmu setelah itu? Karena itu, hendaklah kepada Allah saja orang-orang beriman bertawakal.” (QS. Al Imran  : 160)
If Allah desire to help me, no matter hard the world tried to defeat me, in the end, I would still be unbeatable. Don’t forget that every rezeki you have now is not because your effort but all is Allah will. Allah Maha Baik. Do’a sekecil apapun didengarNya. Jangan pernah berhenti berdoa 🙂
Time can’t be slowed down, wordly lust increases and will never stop. Do you still questioning your self about readiness?